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[Jun. 28th, 2006|09:14 pm] |
carlie and i went to the mall.
i got picked up by the cops for underrage smoking.
i cried puked and got bailed out by my uncle.
my life is spinning. |
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| i said my peace after that lovely voice message eh |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|10:18 pm] |
my name is senya signed on at 10:16:14 PM.
zombie together: my hair is died red, you're harrassing me via the phone, and i have the aim instant messages from you saved on keylogger thank you. my parents will report you to the police, and i am having a nice time in california. go ahead and drive to my house, explain to the police how you got there, without a permit at that. lovely how inconvenienced one can make themselves huh? i'd think so, and if you are so dead set content on me not saying anything about you, than how come you continue to speak of me? i just said you come off as disgusting by the looks of what haili has told me. i don't appreciate who you are, and the way you act or hope to act for show or stun value, so please, use the exit door next time. [i beg of you girl.] and since you do want to know dilan, and who she is, creep on my friends list some more. plz, thx, bye.
my name is senya signed off at 10:16:21 PM. |
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| I blocked her, i cant take it. |
[Jun. 27th, 2006|10:05 pm] |
my name is senya: check your messages home girl
zombie together: i'd prefer to do so otherwise.
my name is senya: why do you try to talk like youre a fucking lawyer or some shit
my name is senya: its so dumb
my name is senya: youve never had sex before
my name is senya: thats why
zombie together: lawyers speak dumb? that's always a nice, good hearted thing to say
zombie together: i'd like to be called a chuck palahniuk wanna-be thank you.
my name is senya: thats noteven what i meant
my name is senya: dude you are so fucking weird and skeleton
my name is senya: not the good kind of weird though.
zombie together: i pppreciate that
my name is senya: if thats what you are thinking
zombie together: appreciate* whoops!
my name is senya: you what
my name is senya: your teeth are fucked up too
my name is senya: how old are you
my name is senya: shouldnt you have braces
zombie together: i like them fucked up,
zombie together: the gap is weird.
zombie together: not the good kind either.
zombie together: but the good kind is too much of a sociopolitical tool wouldn't you say?
my name is senya: no
my name is senya: not really
my name is senya: i dont even know what the fuck that means
zombie together: ugh i'm sorry i am so stoned right now and this is just making me fucking horny girl.
my name is senya: but you dont either
my name is senya: you dont get horny
my name is senya: beacuse you sound like a 5 year old
my name is senya: and 5 year olds
my name is senya: dont know what pussies are
zombie together: i know what mine is, its pretty darned clean, std free.
zombie together: you wouldnt know about that though
my name is senya: nah
zombie together: i apologize reguardless of your acceptance.
my name is senya: ive never had sex in my life
my name is senya: you spelled regardless wrong
my name is senya: homie girl
my name is senya: but its ok
zombie together: nahh, dictionary dot com maniac maniac
zombie together: its really not.
my name is senya: www
my name is senya: dude
my name is senya: you dont need to do that
my name is senya: its already been done
zombie together: i dont have the same browser/network as you, mine is able to lack the www
my name is senya: oh man
my name is senya: you are fucking lucky as shit!
my name is senya: that is so cool you know
my name is senya: since every single browser in the universe
my name is senya: can do that
zombie together: nah my grandparents are, i'm residing with them this summer, getcha fax straight gurl.
zombie together: why would you bother typing the www then?
my name is senya: because its coo
zombie together: [if every browser in the universe is able?]
my name is senya: because its coo
zombie together: maybe in your sick head.
my name is senya: i dont really care that much
my name is senya: because your screen name is really stupid
my name is senya: because zombies are fucking stupid
my name is senya: and dont exist
my name is senya: and all you try to do is be like everybody else in the world
my name is senya: by scribbling out your face in the picture
zombie together: its in a brand new song called flying at tree level girl
my name is senya: because you are ugly
my name is senya: but most other people arent ugly
my name is senya: but you are
my name is senya: you just use it as your cova up
zombie together: alright, you can think i'm ugly just as well (i think you're huge)
my name is senya: dude i am!
my name is senya: but i think its better to eat
zombie together: that's not so healthy.
my name is senya: instead of throwing it up aftawards
zombie together: i have to throwup girl, my bloodtype is o and i have acid reflux and peptic ulcers, not bulimia girlgirlgirl
zombie together: sup at that.
my name is senya: thats so not healthy
my name is senya: why do you tell people y ou are bulimic then
zombie together: can't help it, i was born with it. you weren't born fat, you could help that.
zombie together: i used to be uh duhhh!
my name is senya: oh that is so coo to be like that
my name is senya: and healthy
my name is senya: were you born like that
zombie together: i dont think its so cool nor healthy
my name is senya: then you are fucking dumb
zombie together: nahh i was born pretty thin and have stayed that way for the majority of my life
my name is senya: why do you use another persons picture on your myspace then
zombie together: alright, i am "fucking dumb." alright you're an ingrate? yeah.
my name is senya: its really crazy
my name is senya: because she has a monroe piercing
my name is senya: and i know you dont
zombie together: its called, saracasm and most people have been well adjusted to my weird sense of humor.
my name is senya: thats so cool
zombie together: her name is dilan, would you like her myspace link?
my name is senya: no
my name is senya: i dont like people like her
my name is senya: or you
zombie together: then please stop ranting about me using her picture.
zombie together: i don't necessarily like pople like her either
my name is senya: why did you use her picture though
zombie together: but mainly people like you
my name is senya: people like me?
my name is senya: how are they
my name is senya: they dont careabout shit
my name is senya: they dont say things like
zombie together: it disgusts me to know that someone so mature and all can sit here and annoy the fuck out of a stoned little stupid dumb fuck.
my name is senya: " sup at ___ "
my name is senya signed off at 10:02:22 PM. |
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[May. 27th, 2006|03:43 pm] |
Another thing is no matter how much you think you love somebody, you'll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.
Scene ForDumbies (9:13:53 PM): t bone so young
Scene ForDumbies (9:13:57 PM): i can drive in a year
Scene ForDumbies (9:14:03 PM): imma get hi ma car seat
OoRFTGUITARISToO (10:54:50 PM): i guaged my lip a little bit so now i can spit milk out of the hole
kissi ngafrica (3:40:19 PM): but im sure it isnt easy to guess who was on top and in charge |
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[May. 20th, 2006|01:08 pm] |
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"i'd like to move away, and start over with a whole new identity. someplace where nobody knows who i am and they don't know my name. i'm sick of the town, i need to get away for a little while. i decide what i want and where i go, not you. i know what i'm about and what i'm capable of, not you. i'll grow up, move out and get a job. just to prove to myself i'm alright on my own two feet. i'll discover the unknown oneday, you'll see. i'm not going to let your perception of me dictate how i feel. you can't bring me down, so stop trying." |
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[May. 20th, 2006|12:11 pm] |
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| | cannibal girl by head automatica, thank you kelly.* | ] |
i hope sunday is all i'm building it up to seem to be.
my eyeliner went manson in the last hour that i've been strung out.
i am so content with clear gloss all over the place. |
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[May. 20th, 2006|03:59 am] |
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i've finally become rid of that horrible sinus infection,
the flakes of dead skin finally came off,
i think its from snorting lubriderm.
at least its not burning anymore?
tonight was rather productive i should say.
andrew myers,
this quiet shy boy slash kid from chesapeake came,
oh yeah, i was at a bingo thing to raise money for my brother's baseball team to go to cooperstown in new york. which will fucking happen. i am seeing my friends this summer. the end. i got this shit last year.
but i got to talking to andrew,
he kind of reminds me of being in fourth grade when i didnt give a shit what was going on.
another nice thing if you're a fucking pysco is that im getting unwanted rehab.
i've smoked two cigarettes today,
and no pot in fucking forever.
well, days,
but i like being with my friends, high, smiling, laughing, and shaking.
i think that feeling is amazing and it should become permanent.
it really does change how you think,
but in a positive way. i've never felt any better.
i'll become a one woman advocate for it.
i made 12 bucks too,
but only because my parents run the goddamned baseball show tonight.
i also enjoyed not sucking in at all today.
i mean its been 19 hours or so,
and i haven't pretended to be skinny.
it also feels amazing!
p.s. i love lauren's outlandish-ness.
and im content with having a semi-orthodox type life for awhile,
i have no complaints about the state in which i'm in,
not physcially but emotionally. i feel satisified.
my dad got a job,
he's getting out of the military
finally, no more war,
no more injuries, panic attacks, or depression issues for awhile.
or at least until his medicine stops working,
its sort of nice to be able to hear a motorcycle engine burst or whatever,
and not have him reach for his pretend gun screaming "FUCKING GET DOWN."
hey,
maybe i'll actually finish a chapter in my life for once.
maybe just maybe.
oh and,
I NEED THE SMELL OF SUMMER,
I NEED ITS NOISES IN MY EAR. |
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[May. 19th, 2006|03:44 pm] |
Fun cobain quotes:
My generation's apathy. I'm disgusted with it. I'm disgusted with my own apathy too, for being spineless and not always standing up against racism, sexism and all those other -isms the counterculture has been whinning about for years.
We’re so trendy we can’t even escape ourselves.
The worst crime is faking it.
If you ever need anything please don't hesitate to ask someone else first.
It's okay to eat fish because they don't have any feelings.
My parents are making me go to a raffle bull shit seminar junkie bad habit lame shitass baseball player fundraiser thing.
So I don’t get to get high,
And I don’t get to see my girls.
And Scott’s at deadlands.
So I’ll be busy playing bingo while everyone else has fun,
Whatever
Kelly sent me the new head automatica cd so I can fucking dance to cannibal girl!
Oh, I was so completely right when I said I’ve lost my literary touch.
I might swing by the library for a websters,
Maybe brush up for the night.
I’ll talk to you later. |
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[May. 19th, 2006|03:30 pm] |
he's the best thing ever
no joke either. |
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[May. 18th, 2006|10:07 pm] |
severna park freshmen scenesters
can get over themselves for the day.
its upsetting to hear about this,
and how they cant handle something as small and irritable as a word.
um
pleasantville is an amazing film,
hold hands with someone to it. |
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[May. 17th, 2006|09:26 pm] |
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| | froufrou as usual. | ] |
What I like about you-
-he spells the right way,
-Even in text messages. No “u” its you or “no” its know.
-the gap in his teeth, like me! Except his is cute as buttons :]
-his plaid shirts. Those are so sweet
-his red and blonde hair
-how he isn’t a badass drug dealer.
-his face just in general.
No want to know what. You can find out for yourself. He’s such a godamned sweetheart. I like the values he has and I like the movies he’s into.
I like how he paints faces,
And I like his friends.
I like how he shares his cigarettes too.
Fdjhkfhgs
Maybe I won’t get tangled up in a thing?
Yeah another thing I’ve decided to edit completely out.
I’m not doing anything with another person ever again.
Unless I’m actually with them you know?
No more matt good’s and no more’ we’re friends.. but you know’s.
I’m sick of it and I enjoy myself to much.
By the way.
Go read invisible monsters.
That’s all I’ve been thinking about.
Drag queens and grams of coke. |
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[May. 17th, 2006|09:01 pm] |
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| | the honorary title - bridge and tunnel | ] |
I had a nice chat with my darling Kelly.
She’s such a wonderful girl, I like the people I'm with now.
She said “you just have to surround yourself with good people.” And I have!
Everyone here is so amazing. Honestly I’ll repeat myself as many times as possible.
There isn’t a shred of drama! Im sure I could be the town slut and they still wouldn’t talk shit.
These girls are so funny too, and kindhearted!
Ugh i just enjoy myself too much, they're making me ecstatic!
I feel so comfortable.
Yeaaaah like the two Patrick’s that Scott hangs out with,
Pat is funny as all hell and tbone is just nice talking to.
I really have nothing to say,
So I’ll rant.
Which really makes no sense?
Amanda Galasso said hi today,
I haven’t talked to her in ages,
I really miss long island for girls like her.
I miss my Ashley wojcik and my Vickie troy.
SSS is gunna be the death of me.
No joke.
Um okay goodnight.
:P |
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[May. 15th, 2006|08:31 pm] |
Oh my stars, here we go again.
My mom is a fucking physco
Seriously I’m starting a book about my at home life. It’s just getting to the point where I say fuck it and I consider just doing something irrational.
She’s now taken up the art of alcoholism.
And I'm getting sent away to California my whole godamned summer.
What the fuck.
The beach, meeting movie stars, and wasting time at an office is some real good intervention.
Intervention for what
What the fuck do I do?
A minor prescription medicine addiction, eating disorders, and pot smoking isn’t shit compared to what I should be doing.
Go reverse my godamned childhood.
Make me mother fucking smile. |
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[May. 15th, 2006|07:49 pm] |
I finally switched schools,
A little over a month now and I’m rather happy. I’m just going to call them the main people I hang out with, because they are, um Kelly, Lauren, Rochelle, Sarah, and Kirsten. They’re the chillest gals ever too. They smoked me up for my first time a few weeks ago and I seriously think it’s the best high I’ve ever had. That valium addiction is over; I’m done throwing up to you guys to. Bulimia just gets old after awhile, I mean it helps,
It just doesn’t help very much. And it lowers your self esteem even more. It was sort of dumb thinking about it, having to carry a toothbrush around, constantly worrying about my weight, if there was anything in my hair. Well, I’m almost ecstatic to report that its fin. For the most part, I’m fucking with weird diet pills and things now. I’m even trying an all liquid diet, its just my tummy and I’ll be done.
The most basic fact too, is that I could lose it simple if I went back to running like I did in XC season, but I’m rather lazy.
Uh next thing.
I met this boy here,
I’m just abbreviating, like in Gossip Girls but ‘S’ is the best ever. Well whatever I might as well say his name, no one else is going to fit the description and I hardly doubt he has the time to worry about my blog. Haha. Anyway his name’s Scott Shirey Simpson. He runs this make-up company for theatre shows and such, but get this; he does it with his best friends! How amazing is that. Um he’s the best. The end. I’d pretty much fuck that any day. He’s sucha sweetheart too, no joke.
I don’t even want to get into it,
Hes just real great.
JDHGJSHG
I just read Catcher in the rye too,
Thanks to miss Alex B. and Stephen E.
It was a great read!
So was Choke.
But it gets you real sexy and stuff, so never read it in public.
Forwarning,
Um I’ll write later. Im adhd.
Kbye. |
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[Mar. 7th, 2006|08:06 pm] |
Today i finally stopped everything, I really, honestly don't have a feeling left in me. It started in 7th grade when Drake started giving me hell for having a crush on him. I was so fucking ridiculous. I used to try so hard just to fit in with my own friends. I actually belonged to a clique that didn't have a label but people left us alone. Thank You guys, for excluding me from my very own childhood. I can cry right now. But what good would it do? I dont have anyway to feel anything anymore.
Last friday, a girl whom i've been pretty close with, had her friend Alice follow me around in the hallways in the morning. My friends are so completely shallow, that they wouldn't stand up for anyone unless they were worth some sort of reward. Anyway, Alice follows me in the morning, and i get the usual "dyke, slut, whore, fag" comments thrown up at me. I ignored them. Then at lunch Alice smokes in the corner, with a boy who thinks he's pretty hip, but is honestly a serious joke. Five minutes later, Alice's friend comes up to me and starts beating my face into oblivion.
Not that bad,
but still,
open hand hurts.
And i didn't react. I didn't know how to. I told the administrators it was my morals. But it was because I am so worn down.
I think i've met one person on my level this whole Maryland experience. Kerry,
he hacks computers and will graduate at the top of our class. He scored higher than 90 and some odd number than college bound juniors.
But that's not why he's on my level.
I dont have a level, i dont know what the fuck im talking about.
But he understands me. If i said i want to become male. He'd back me up.
Possibly.
I don't know, but he is amazing.
My friends are fucked up.
I recieved a comment recently on myspace due to the stupid junk we pulled on sam's golf cart. We all were in trouble for it, i went home, and they ditched me and went to the movies. how thoughtful. Anyway i mooned five year olds and cussed, so did they. I took the blame, and i got a comment reading "you stupid fucking bulimic bitch." with a hell of a lot more etc not mentioned. |
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